Love Exists

Sometimes I stare at this endless abyss that is known as life and I feel that there is no end. No end to the lies, the deceit, to the falseness that individuals reek of. No end to the hate, to the dolefullness of this world. I see the pain, the ravaged souls of the loveless walking around like a hollow shell. But sometimes, some rare times... I see someone who has emerged from the emptiness. A soul not left unblemished, not left without some disfigurement but who, at their core, are still enchanted at some level by the idea that love exists.

She smiles...

She smiles your way

Holds onto her breath

Afraid you'll take it away.

You don't even know

Exactly how she feels

Every time she has to go.

And when she looks in your eyes

She begs everytime that

Your words aren't just lies.

Because she can't help but shiver when you call her name.

And she waits all alone for a chance to be yours.

She wants to give you so much more than her broken heart.

But it's all she has and it's yours to take.

If you just have a little faith in her.

They never stay long

All the girls you know.

Love and life can't be all wrong.

And she stands in place

Telling you it's okay.

She reads the signs on your face.

And when you look in her eyes

There's something inside you

That makes it hard to say goodbye.

When you wake to see they've all left you alone.

Lift your eyes to see her blue eyes crying for your pain.

She's here, she's ready, she needs you.

I need you.

Because I can't help but shiver when you call my name.

And I wait all alone for a chance to be yours

I want to give you so much more than my broken heart.

But it's all I have, and it's yours to take

Just have faith in me.

Believe me, I'm not her.

Believe this, I know you.

One More Time

with eyes shut tight, I begin to let my words form. so scared of reactions, of unsatisfaction. a lifetime stuck in a moment, my breath stands still in my lungs. this time has to be different. no misleading or deceiving. only pure and honesty intwind with sighs and frailty.  exposed truly I am. I don't want you to want me any other way. Time says move to the next day. I wanna hear what you hear when the noise dies away. contemplate the dates of fate. mark your calender for heartbreak. which line threw you away?

Lip Sync

Placed on the couch was her reason for goodbye and her breaking heart. Placed infront of it, was the angel that sung her pain. Lets take deep breaths, put on a brave smile, and place our time in the Lords hands. Send a tearful prayer to the sky, cover our eyes for just a moment. Long enough to reflect on yesterdays. Move lips in motion with the song. what more can she do so he knows what he means? She's spent time on her knees, yelling her confused, unwilling sorrow. she's gone through the phases. Now she knows, this is just how it has to be. but what does that change? i don't think it could. hold on tight while you can, then be brave young girl, and know this goodbye, is just an 'I'll be seeing you'. and then you have to move on.

"And I'm gonna be, somewhat lonely. Cuz you know no one could ever fill your shoes. As iron sharpens iron, you have taught me how to be a stronger man, and I look forward to the day I learn again."

Helping Me Stand

A drive down a so familiar road. We could take it with our eyes closed. And this time, I do. I know you're there next to me, I can hear you're breathing. But I cannot open my eyes to look at you. I'm too afraid. I do not want to see me. Not in the rearview mirror. I feel you take my hand. That's when one tear finds it's way from the confusion in my heart, and down my face. I hear  your words but cannot quite comprehend. Your hand wraps tighter around mine. Then I understand. "Open your eyes. Be brave. Be beautiful. Cry. Then smile. To love is to hurt. But love never ends. Just the ideas of who you love." I can open my eyes. And look at you. Look ahead. Remember the rest. My darling friend, we drive on.

Shush

Some days... the noise overwhelms me as I try to go thru life not faded, un-jaded by the things that happen so abruptly, leaving me so untrusting. Can't take back a single part, of my heart. No matter how much it hurts, that it never works. The time in transition, leaves me wishing. Go back to the start, right before the part where I made my misguided reaction to our instant attraction and made the choice when I said in a passive voice... I'm yours.

Green Eyes Don't Cry

keep your green eyes to the ground. do not cry. when they speak, smile so pretty. isn't that what you've learned? Do not tell them of your sorrow. Do not tell your heart. and do not cry. the voice that has calmed and reasoned all that lays you down to sleep is distant, quiet, fading. and that's what we are. fading fragments of this colorful picture. A light dims in your eyes, but do not, please, do not cry. laughter is a slap in the face. but swallow it as if it is comfort. your first mistake, was raising those green eyes to the day. they are now searching for him. you wont find him. everything falls to you. wear it well. no ears, no words, no mind, no hands to press upon. so lie still. hold wounds. sigh at physical pain. and cry. cry tears from green eyes. just to complete the routine. cry.